My ways, my child, are not your ways...

For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways, saith the Lord. For as the Heavens are higher than the Earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts. Isaiah 55:8-9.
   My friend, Jeanie, reminded me that I quoted this verse in Sunday School the Sunday before we doubled our family. :) Then I remembered that Yes, those verses had been very inspiring to me the week before. I had forgotten. Yet how true it is. We were NOT going to adopt domestically again. We were really drawn to brown children, NOT caucasian (tho we love the Caucasians we have :). We were NOT interested in fostering (this isn't really fostering, but similar in some ways). AND I really did NOT want any more girls. Maybe one more, but TWO more?? No way. Now here we are HOPING and PRAYING that we get the chance to adopt TWO CAUCASIAN GIRLS from the U.S. while we "FOSTER" them. Just a bit ironic, aye? Truly His ways are HIGHER.
  We have been working our tails off getting LEGAL. All the papers that need to be collected is frustrating and incredible. Our home study was going to expire plus it was MISSING many documents that it needed to be legal. Well, these 2 lil girls land in our lap and everything has to be FAST FORWARDED to get us legal. Let me give you just a small list of documents that need to be collected and YOU tell ME how to find time to do these little bitty TIME consuming jobs??? It is frustrating, but we plug along.
- water analysis (take a sample of water into the lab, pay $180 to make sure it is SAFE for your children.
- vaccination records for 5 dogs (not a big deal, but takes time. Time that we don't have)
- book reports on various books we need to READ about toddler adoption (AS IF??)
- insurance updated for 2 more children
- autobiography of our life (minimum 2 pages. M must do one and I must do one) One of the docs that was MISSING????
This is just a fraction of the picture. Get it?
  Another funny thing is we bred each of our 4 females this spring. Of course, before there was anything even in the wind about getting 2 more lil girls! First one is due next week, the other 3 the first 2 weeks in May. Hilarious. Kind of. I told mom maybe puppies will be what I need to keep my sanity and get my mind off children 24/7! Always can find a bright side somewhere! I suppose it will work somehow...
   We asked our SW on Friday what the percent was of us being able to adopt these girls. She said 99% sure. Good news. Another thing we learned was that birth mom did not drink alcohol or do drugs in pregnancy. We didn't have any reason to think so, but sometimes some of those effects can pop up later in childhood, so we were relieved. We are truly blessed beyond what we deserve. (I wish I would always feel this all a BLESSING, sadly some hours I don't realize it as such :( But I can hardly bear to say that, when some of you, my friends have been waiting and longing for armsfull of children for years and years. Please forgive me, friends. Life is real and I'm human.
   My horse of 14 yrs, Sunshine, just went to her new home 2 days ago. She was born when I was 13. Very hard. I get so fiercely attached to my animals. I just don't have time for 4 horses and she was the one that needed to go. I'm glad she went now after winter when I haven't been riding or working with her regularly, because I can almost forget the partnership we had. Just can't think about it.
  And no, if you're wondering, I don't have time to blog, but writing has always been a balm to my soul and I really want to be able to look back on this time in our lives, so I'll keep writing. (right now I'm pecking away with one hand as I rock my baby to sleep :) lol
   Life isn't easy, but in submission there is always joy and beauty.